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30Mar/164

Looking Forward

For as long as I can remember, and especially lately, I've been down on myself.

I've been through a lot of change in the past year: asexuality, finding out about HSP, sleep issues, depression, anxiety, oversharing this at times (maybe now) and not respecting friends' boundaries (truly sorry).

I've always thought that I wasn't capable of great things, that my disability would hold me back, and define me as nothing and not worthy of anyone or anything.

I'm taking steps to be a better me today than I was yesterday. I've started using the headspace app, started using brain training apps, started losing weight again, and retimed my medication which seems to have solved my sleep issues.

I always thought that I wanted to do brave and adventurous things, but never had the confidence to do them and took the easier path instead. But this past weekend, while I was watching My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2, there was a character who expressed the same feelings, and the response to that character was that she did something brave and adventurous. What she did, I did. I've written it on a Post-It note so whenever I'm feeling unsure, or insecure I can remember:

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  1. Go, Matt!

    You did something that some other people only talk/dream about doing. It takes a huge amount of guts to move to the other side of the world, by yourself, and start over. I totally admire you for that. :) Chin up. Jenpops x

  2. We sometimes live our lives without realising all the amazing things we’ve done. You’re amazing! Keep reminding yourself of that fact.
    And you keep writing – that’s awesome too. Don’t stop!!


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